Mystic Desire Anthology – Love That Binds
Love that Binds
This short story took me out of my comfort level. The parameters were a Fantasy, Paranormal with romance.
I invite you to read the first chapter.
Love That Binds
The squeaky, high-pitched voices of the girls chanting made Ianthee run faster. She ran past the aged wooden sign announcing the town of Hecate (Heckatee) that sat at the edge of town. She wondered if it was the town or the Greek and Roman underworld goddess they named it after that fueled the townspeople’s beliefs in ghosts, witchcraft, and curses.
Just past the edge of town, she ran into a wooded area hoping to lose them. Their voices got closer and closer as they chased her into the woods. Fearing what they might do to her if they caught her, she began to cry. Tears ran down her face and blurred her vision. Her toe hit a rock and she fell face first into the mud. The girls laughed and chanted, “Muddy witch,” as they formed a half circle around her. Her body was wired tight as a bowstring and on the edge of hysteria as the mob edged closer.
The sound of leaves rustling and footsteps coming closer made her heart beat faster. The taunting had stopped and had been replaced by silence.
She turned toward the sound. “Are you all right?” Ianthee saw a pair of large brown hiking boots. The sound of his deep, yet soft voice was mesmerizing.
“Yes,” Ianthee said around the sob trapped in her throat.
“Here, let me help you up.” He put his arm around her waist and helped her to her feet. “My name is Caleb Oster.”
She looked up into sapphire blue eyes. He pulled out a handkerchief and started to clean her face. As he gently wiped her cheeks she studied his features, a square-shaped face with stubble spread sparsely over his jaw, chin, and cheek.
Ianthee had heard girls at school talk about Caleb. He was sixteen, played football, and was one of the few boys that drove a car.
Ianthee heard the girls gasp. Then one of them said, “You better not get too close to her. She’ll put a spell on you.”
Ianthee wondered if he had heard the name the girls called her. Better yet, she wondered if he had heard the rumors in town. If he hadn’t, it wouldn’t be too long before he did. Rumors about how her mother and grandmother had used witchcraft to cure some elderly of rashes, arthritis, and a host of other ailments ran rampant among the town people.
“My name is Ianthee.”
He tilted his head. “Ianthee. That’s an unusual name. What does it mean?”
The way he’d said her name, so soft it was almost like a whisper, made her want to swoon. It was so different from the way the mean girls pronounced it in their bullying chants, “Eye on Thee is a witch.” She hated the way they pronounced her name as if the syllables were separate words.
She smiled up at him. “It means the hunter’s daughter.”
“Is your father a hunter?”
“Yes, but he’s dead.”
He continued to wipe the mud from her face. She began to shiver from her wet clothes. She felt like her heart stopped when he took off his sweater off. The girls were still watching them. They had turned their teasing chants on Caleb.
“Don’t touch her. You’re going to get warts all over you,” one chanted.
He didn’t deserve their meanness, and her sadness became mixed with anger. Warmth and a feeling of being nurtured swept through her when he wrapped the sweater around her and tears hovered in her eyes as he pulled her closer. Caleb lifted her chin, compelling her to look at him. She swayed as his face came closer. It was as if magnets drew their mouths together. She thought she was floating when his lips finally touched hers.
“Ew, she will cast a spell on you. She’s liable to turn you into a frog,” another warned.
“Or make you disappear,” someone else added.
He pulled away and looked into her eyes. “You wouldn’t do that, would you?”
She shook her head. “I have no such power, even if I wanted to.”
Christmas the season of hope
The season of hope
Christmas is the season of hope. It started thousands of years ago with the birth of a baby. A special baby bringing us hopes that peace and love will prevail. Even in times of war, there was a moment of peace.
Christmas softens our hearts and opens our wallets to find gifts for our loved ones and strangers. It is a magical time, but we become burdened down by the commercialism, and busyness.
Enjoy the season
I want to encourage all of you to take time to enjoy the holiday. The most important gift you can give those you love is your time. Take the time to watch Christmas movies Hallmark/Netflix is a great place to find them. Go ice-skating if you live in an area that permits ice-skating.
Enjoy the wonder, catch snowflakes
on your tongue, find a special event you can enjoy with your family and start a tradition. Perhaps visit a train museum, go see the Nutcracker, or share a meal at a special place.
Friends and I went to Johnston’s Tea House in Cranberry Township Pennsylvania. They trimmed the home in the most beautiful Christmas decorations. Each room in a different color or theme.
The tables were set with pretty cups and saucers, cloth napkins and teapots. They had a standard menu so there was no need to decide. They brought dainty tea sandwiches, scones, quiche, and dessert to the table on a three-tiered stand. The top tier comprised of slices of walnut bread, fruit tarts and delightful chocolate thimbles filled with chocolate mousse.
We felt like ladies having tea with Dickens and transcended into a different time, and place for ninety minutes.
Festival of Lessons in Carols
Our church choir performs Lessons in Carols. Some of you may ask what is Lessons in Carols?
On Christmas Eve 1918 the first Festival of Lessons and Carols was planned by Eric Milner-White, he had convinced the Church of England that they needed a more “imaginative” worship.
The original comprising nine little scriptures and nine carols. Over the years, other churches adapted Lessons in Carols and songs changed, and new songs added. Its first public broadcast was in 1928, except for 1930, Lessons in Carols continues to broadcast today and as far as the West Indies.
You can listen to a Festival of Nine Lessons and Carols on December 24, 2018, at 9 a.m. It will be broadcast live from the chapel of King’s College in Cambridge, England and heard by millions around the world.
If you would like to attend in person, the following website will provide further information. https://www.tripsavvy.com/carols-from-kings-cambridge-christmas-tradition-1661590
Why should you attend a Lessons and Carols?
- To hear again God’s Words and his promise for the salvation of humankind.
- Unity with other Christians from all corners of the world have listened to similar readings and songs
- For a short time, you‘ll be transported from the day’s daily angst and pressures of holiday preparation. It will remind you of that long-ago time in a field with the shepherds, to understand the meaning of the words “sore afraid before trumpeting” and the amazing news you need not fear because the old age message remains, “it brings good tidings of great joy for all people.”
- Last, it will remind you of what Christmas is about. Put aside the “world’s” Christmas and take a moment to remember the true meaning, “Word of the Father, now in the flesh appearing.”
Give yourself a special gift listen or attend Lessons in Carols near you. Bask in the warmth of the Christmas season and remember the birth of Jesus.
Have a Peaceful and Merry Christmas. `
The Joys of Swinging on a Swing
The Joys of Swinging on a Swing
The science of why swinging on a swing brings us pleasure is related to our sensory processing and our vestibular system that has to do with balance and movement and is centered in the inner ear. This sense allows us to maintain our balance and to experience gravitational security. When developed we’re confident in our ability to maintain a position without falling. The vestibular system allows us to move smoothly. It also works right alongside all of our other sensory systems, helping us use our eyes effectively and process sounds in our environment.
As infants, our parents may have put us in a baby swing. The motion lulled the infant to sleep. Toddlers like swinging, and it helps them develop motor skills and eye-hand coordination. As they grow and their confidence grows, they discover swinging on their bellies or sitting on the swing and twisting it around to let twirl in the opposite direction.
All those simple childhood activities played a part in developing confidence. Participating in a variety of activities helped us to become more confident. We learned how to control movements. We graduated to climbing, somersaulting, and jumping. We developed the confidence to start and stop movement calmly and with control. Some of us became comfortable with climbing, swinging, somersaulting, and jumping, knowing that our body would adapt and that we could maintain our balance and keep us from falling or getting hurt.
As teens, we may remember the local swimming hole where you swung from a tire swing in a tree and jumped off into the water. Sitting on a porch swing with a girl/boyfriend. The tire swing under a tree. Favorite summertime activity is swinging on a hammock.
Benefits of swinging on a swing.
- It’s a good exercise. For every hour you swing, you burn 200 calories.
- You feel like a kid again.
- You can get fit and spend time outdoors
- Swinging good for your physical health. It can condition the joints, muscles, tendons, and ligaments. The activity is good for pelvic muscles and helps with balance
- Swinging can benefit your mental health. You tend to feel good, thrilled and happy after swinging for a while in the fresh air.
- Studies suggest that swinging can even benefit children suffering from autism.
- It is a home remedy to reduce muscle soreness after exercise
- The best thing about swinging is. it doesn’t look like a workout. It looks more like a recreational activity. Twenty minutes of swinging works like a reasonable workout.
- There are variations in swinging–standing position and sitting position etc. keep your legs straight or try any other variation that engages your whole body.
Cautions if you are going to swing:
Make sure that you hold the chains firmly while swinging.
Test the swing before you use it as any damage in the chains can be hazardous while swinging.
I like swinging because it invokes memories, pleasant memories. Yes as a child it was all play and fun: My first kiss from a boy was while sitting on a swing. Sitting on the swing at my grandmother’s curling up with a good book. Lazy summer afternoons sitting in a swing listening to a baseball game.
After I married and had children, I remember sitting on a swing holding one of the boys and swinging.
Now I have grandchildren, and I still enjoy swinging more than ever. I’m making more memories with them.
I bought my son a swing from the Hammock store in Duck, North Carolina. We made a deal. I would purchase it, but he would install it at his house so that when I babysit the kids, I get to use it.
We swing from spring to late fall. We grab a blanket and the three of us cram onto the swing and swing. I’m asked to tell a story–my granddaughter loves stories with witches. Oh, the stories are not from a book, I have to make them up with my “mouth.” (I think she means from my mind). When either one of them is upset about something they come to me, and we sit in the swing. My granddaughter will calm down immediately as we swing and I sing Somewhere Over The Rainbow.
Something so simple as a swing is a treasure trove of beautiful memories. What memories does swinging invoke in you?
“Mom, you can’t do this.”
Phae sucked in a deep breath and counted to ten. “Kera, I am your mother. I am 64 years old. I can do whatever I want. I appreciate your concern. But I’m going whether you like it or not.”
Pinching her bottom lip, Kera said, “I think you should see a doctor mom. I don’t believe that you’re being rational.”
Phae glared at her daughter. She didn’t know if she wanted to laugh, cry or be angry. She could feel a knot forming in her stomach as indignation jolted through her body. “What are you insinuating Kera? That I can’t make decisions for myself?” Phae could feel her face getting warm as her temper flared. “I can assure you I have been making decisions for this family since before you were born. Always putting everyone else’s needs and wants first.”
Phae took a deep breath. She looked across the room to where Kera stood with her palm over her mouth and her eyes shimmering with tears. For an instant, Phae saw a little twelve-year-old girl who needed her mother’s understanding, not the 38-year-old teacher and mother of three that Kera had become.
I’m handling this poorly; she thought. I don’t want to argue with my daughter. She walked over to Kera and wrapped an arm around her.
“I’m sorry mom. I didn’t mean for it to sound like I think you’re incompetent.”
Leading Kera over to the bed, she pushed aside the packing.
“Sit Kera. Maybe I can help you understand. ”
Phae began to pace and wring her hands, contemplating how to explain her decision without sounding as if she regretted her life.
”I didn’t finish college. I worked and supported my parents and siblings adding to the family coffers. When I met your dad, I was taking a few night courses on architecture. I dreamt of becoming an architect and design fabulous buildings. I dreamed of going to Europe to see the ancient ruins and the architecture in Italy, Greece, and Spain.”
Phae expelled a whoosh of breath. “Your father swept me off my feet at nineteen. We got married, and I left my parents house and moved in with your father. I was blessed with two beautiful children. Your brother was a honeymoon baby, and you came along two years later. Your dad didn’t want me to work. He believed he was the breadwinner, and we would get by on what he brought home. Life pulled me along, and I went wherever anyone needed me to be. I was happy with my life. I took care of you kids and took care of my parents and your dad’s parents when they got old until they passed on.
“Kera, I don’t regret my life. I loved your father; I love being a mom and grandmother, but at this stage of my life, I need an adventure. I want an adventure. I want to see a little of the world before I die.
“I had hoped when your father retired he might be more open to traveling. He died before we even had a chance to discuss it. With pleading eyes, she implored Kera to understand. I’m not waiting for someday anymore. My someday is here. I want to take advantage of this opportunity to live in Mallorca Spain, to see the things I’ve always wanted to see. I want to be on my own and not have to worry about pleasing anyone but myself. I know you are concerned for me tell me what you are afraid of…. “I’m worried about if you get sick or have a heart attack, or get mugged.”
Phae shrugged. “Even if I didn’t go those are all possibilities.” Phae walked over to the dresser. She picked up her cell phone and two boxes. “I got a new cell phone number that permits me to call or text internationally. As a going away gift, I bought you and your brother each one.”
“What if you decide not to come back? “
Phae looked over the top of her glasses and smiled. “Really? This is my home. My family is here. You, your brother, my wonderful grandchildren. Besides, I’m looking forward to you all coming for a visit.”
Kera cocked her head to one side and responded with, “Mom what am I supposed to do for nine months while you are away?”
“Live your life, honey. That is what I am going to be doing.”Kera rose and hugged her. “I’ll miss you. And I’ll still worry. Send lots of pictures, okay?”
Phae stroked her daughter’s cheek pushing hair away from her fair face. “I’ll miss you too. Now help me finish packing.”
The Feeling of Not Enough
I want to share this article with my readers. I have struggled with that feeling of not enough or not good enough. I wish I had written this article, but I do want to give credit where credit is due. Please read and share your thoughts.
The Feeling of Not Enough
Hilary Jacobs Hendel
Mike believed he had a good life and felt lucky for all the things he had. He was married to a loving wife, had a good job, owned a beautiful house, and had 3 healthy kids.
Despite all his good fortune, Mike could not shake the nagging feeling that he wasn’t enough. “I should be more successful. I should make more money. I should be where my boss is. I should have a graduate degree. I should have a bigger house. I should have more friends.” These were some of the “shoulds” that plagued him on a daily basis.
“Could I get you curious about this part of you that feels inadequate?” I asked Mike at our initial meeting. After he had consented, I suggested, “Let yourself travel back in time…back and … back and … back. How old were you when you first felt not enough?” I asked him.
He paused to reflect, “It’s definitely been with me a long time,” He said. “Maybe 6 or 8 years old? Around there.”
Mike’s father became extremely successful when Mike was 6 years old. Because of his father’s new job, his family moved to an exotic country where they didn’t speak English. Mike was scared and felt like a stranger. Even though he attended an international school, he had no friends for a long time. His parents pushed him hard. They meant well and were trying to encourage him. But feeling scared and overwhelmed by the many changes in his life, he misinterpreted their words as disappointment that he wasn’t enough–it was the familiar feeling he still had today.
We are not born feeling inadequate. Life experiences and emotions create that sense within us in a variety of creative ways. For example, when we were little, and we felt afraid or anxious, our mind told us something was wrong with us, not with our environment. That’s why children who were abused or neglected grow up to be adults who carry so much shame. A child’s mind, not yet rational, concludes, “There must be something wrong with me if I feel so bad” or “I must be bad if I’m being treated badly.”
As adults, armed with education on emotions and how childhood adversity affects the brain, we can understand that feeling not enough is a byproduct of an environment that was insufficient. We are in fact enough! Yet to feel more solid in our Self, we must work to transform the not enough feeling.
One way to transform old beliefs is to work with them as separate child parts. With some mental energy, we can externalize ailing parts of us and then relate to them in healing ways.
For example, I asked Mike, “Can you imagine that your 6-year old self, who feels not enough, is sitting on my sofa over there so we can be with him and try to help?
I paused while Mike exerted the mental energy it took to visualize his child part with some distance, “What does that 6-year-old part of you look like? What do you see him wearing? Where do you see him? Is he in a specific memory?” I asked.
With practice, Mike learned to connect and communicate to that part of himself. Mike learned to listen to that little boy inside. Offering it compassion helped him feel much better, even though he had struggled with the concept initially.
I also suggested to Mike that feeling, not enough might be a defense against his deeper emotions towards others who had hurt him or not been there for him when he needed support. Thinking about The Change Triangle, we slowed down to notice his feelings towards himself and his parents. Without judging his core emotions as right or wrong, he accepted that he was angry at his father for uprooting him, a move that had cost him his confidence.
Since emotions are physical sensations, another way to work with wounded parts is through the body. Mike learned to recognize how not enough felt physically. “It is like an emptiness—like a hole inside. I know I have been successful at times and I believe my family loves me. Emotionally, it doesn’t feel that way at all. Good stuff comes in but it goes right through me like a bucket with a hole. I’m never filled.”
To help patch the hole in his bucket, I also helped Mike develop his capacity to hold onto good feelings by noticing them. “If you validate your accomplishments what does that feel like inside?”
“I feel taller,” said Mike.
“Can you stay with the feeling of being taller for just 10 seconds?” I asked.
Like a form of training, he built his capacity to experience positive feelings. Going slowly, we practiced noticing sensations associated with pride, love, gratitude, and joy, getting used to them a little at a time.
What else can Mike and all of us do in the short run to help the parts of us that feel not enough?
We can remind our self again and again that the feeling of not enough was learned. It’s not objective fact, even when it feels so viscerally true.
We can connect to that part of us that feels bad and offer it compassion, like we would do for our child, partner, colleague, friend, or pet.
We can stand in a power pose 2-3 times daily to feel stronger and more confident. (See Ted Talk on Power Poses by Amy Cuddy)
We can practice deeply belly breathing, 5 or 6 times in a row, to calm our nervous system.
We can exercise to get adrenaline flowing and create a sense of empowerment.
We can remember this very helpful phrase: Compare and Despair! When you catch yourself making comparisons to others, STOP! It doesn’t help and only hurts by fueling feelings and thoughts of not enough.
In the long run, we heal the parts of us that feel inadequate by first becoming aware of them. Once aware, we listen to them and try to fully understand the story of how they came to believe they were not enough. Over time, by naming, validating and processing the associated emotions both from the past and present, the frequency and intensity of our not enough parts diminishes.
Mike learned to feel and move through the buried anger he had towards his parents both for moving and for not noticing how much he struggled. He validated the pain and sadness for what he went through without judging whether he was entitled to his feelings. When his wife hugged him and praised him for being such a great dad, he took in her love and praise as deeply as possible. He accepted himself during the times when he was too tired to fight against the feelings of not enough. By educating himself on emotions and how the brain is affected by childhood adversity, Mike learned that everyone struggled. No one is perfect, not even his father. When all else failed, just this thought brought him peace and reminded him that he was enough.
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Works in Progress (WIP)
Works in Progress
This is where readers can find out what’s in my pipeline if it’s a novel or short story.
The titles are “working titles” the publisher or I may decide to change them before the completion of the story.
I appreciate and need your feedback. Let me know what you like to read or what you think of some of my ideas.
Is targeted to be an 80,000-word novel. Currently, 85% of the way written. The main characters are Hauck Deveraux and Andrea (Andie) Brewster.
Several years ago, Andie was in an accident. She lost her leg, her career, and her fiance. Believing she is not desirable she protects herself from losing her heart.
To keep her sister from going to jail, she finds herself playing the role of fiance to a billionaire.
Intrique, suspicion, and attraction find Hauck and Andie connecting to one another. How will she tell him about her leg? How can she get back to the life she had? What secrets does Hauck have?
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